I have found the Lord!

Been sitting with this on my heart all week. I’ve been talking to God all week. I’ve been feeling like I’m going crazy from the feeling of transformation.. It’s so beautiful like the warmest of hugs. The purest of energy. I’m addicted..

A little back story if I can get through this without crying that’d be great but I already am lol..

I was a bad case. I owned a Satanic Bible at one point and listened to Deicide.. My life was absolutely hell as you could imagine. I’ve been marked several times over the years.. I was being deceived. By Satan himself.. Not just any evil force. It was him. I can’t even say the thoughts of actions he’d want me to do. Praise the lord I never acted. To this day I’ve never been in a physical fight of any kind. I have that going for me. I knew if I ever did get into a physical altercation.. Satan would.. Play.. I def acted out many times and broke property around me when I did so people in my life saw him..

I lost my job two weeks after starting a businesses. I had that job for almost 3 years. I was operations management at a fintech company. It’s clear now that was blowing up my ego and thus losing it was a blessing actually. The Lord has shown me that now.

I’m no stranger to Christianity.. I spent my hs days at a Baptist private school. I even played in their chapel every Wednesday.. But I did not have the lord with me. Even though I was in his house and all.. It hurts me looking back. I can only imagine the pain I put him though. I’m sorry Lord. Never again. My teacher and I always butted heads but in a way a mother would love a child.. I saw her cry for the first time when I dropped out. She never gave up on me. She no doubt knew.

I haven’t been baptized yet because I want it to be special. Much like how one plans the wedding to the love of their life.. I hope that’s ok.. I don’t wanna hurt him anymore.

My house still has Satan in it and I don’t wanna go to details because that’s not my business to discuss. I live with family. It’s all I can do right now. Besides, I’ll never give up on my family. I was the most lost of them all. If I can be saved.. Anyone can.

Please be gentle with me as this has been a beautiful but hard week for me. God wanted me to share my story here. It’s private enough.. I hope this touches who it needs to. It’s never too late. He loves you. Please trust me and accept him. You. Won’t. Regret. It.

AMEN!!!