I feel so lost

I’ve fallen so far back into a vicious cycle of sin that I feel like if I don’t break free of it soon then I’ll be lost forever in the outer darkness. I’ve prayed to Jesus for help many times, but I keep relapsing. Maybe my faith isn’t strong enough? Maybe i’m not praying enough, snot separating myself from the world, making too many compromises? Maybe it’s time for a radical change in my life where I need to just die to the world, die to myself and to go out into the wilderness just like He did. (Figuratively of course lol….maybe)

I don’t know the answer to those questions right now, but i do know that I don’t want to live this way anymore.