I don’t know if I believe in God anymore

I was born in a religious family where they always thank God for everything that happens and as a kid I just followed their footsteps since I also thought Jesus was real and that he had the ability to save everyone in need.

I became older and my belief in God started to decrease I guess? But I pushed that thought aside since everyone I knew closely believe in him so I should too. I got older and I got depression and it only gotten worse and my mental health only got better because I had someone to talk to. I say this because most people I see on the internet say that Jesus and God has helped them get better through their pains and when I saw that I couldn’t just help but think, why didn’t they help me? I was so depressed to the fact I almost lost all my friends due to my negative energy around them and my mom not even trying to understand why I was so sad. I honestly hate it when people say God is the way of life or God heals all your pains because I think that’s absolute bullshit because why didn’t he help me then? If he was all so powerful then why isn’t there peace in the world and why can’t he listen to everyone’s wishes? I feel like believing in God is an obligation now because of the fact that if you don’t believe in God you’ll get bashed on by so many people saying how God is real and he’s the only solution in life. I’m really sorry for ranting I just wanted to know how peoples respond to this