I hate my life

Im 13, and im Pentecostal, and so is my family. They raised me Pentecostal. Except literally every person I’ve met that’s Pentecostal is the biggest fucking asshat I’ve ever met. I don’t know if I want to support god because of how all of his followers are, or what. I’ve gotten the Holy Ghost before, but im still not sure. I also have a lot of self hatred because I’m born with autism and adhd, and people sometimes make fun of me for it. I’m at a loss for what to do. I hate being me, because I think I’m weird and obnoxious and I can’t control what I say, and half the other Pentecostal kids I meet are borderline if not fully pyschotic, talking to me in my face how they want to kill me. I mean, what the fuck?