My gf broke up with me because gods voice told her too. 5 days later shes in a rebound with a church boy. Im slowly losing faith and need help.

Hey guys, this is a long story but I am slowly losing faith here in god and need help. This was my first relationship, and Its been 6 months and im still in pain. I am 21(m) and my ex all of a sudden called me controlling because in our relationship she used to do things that made me uncomfortable.

For instance she asked to go swimming with two guys alone, or one time we got into an argument over her loyalty and she went clubbing the next day while tons of guys flirted with her. Anways after dating for 3 years, (long distance by the way). I have been taking her to lots of places like Vegas to see my family or Disneyland etc.

She said she got really bad vibes from Disneyland, saying Mickey Mouse was in the illuminati, even though it seemed she was having a fun time. Im a Christian boy but she says she doesn’t agree with any religion and just wants a relationship with the lord. She became super super spiritual lately and she would say stuff like my praying over her family was casting moving shadows in her apartment.

She said that its normal to see moving shadows and if I didnt agree, then im unequally yoked or dont understand. I couldn’t beleive her because she would say stuff like her little sister and her would play minecraft together in their heads because of jesus. Anyways, later she started cursing at me and not letting me listen to any music that isnt about god.

She started feeding the homeless and called people witches all of a sudden. She sent me the meanest notes saying ” You are not a man of god”, “I want someone to love god more than me” “Spit on me etc”. Then out of nowhere she drew a photo of gods hand with mine away from his. Coming from a girl who legitimately says she hears the voice of the holy spirit to break up with me.

This hurt so bad but I thought maybe my relationship with god is less than hers, so I bought us Christians couples therapy but she didnt even want to show and said the therapist gave bad vibes becauee he was calling her borderline schizophrenic. Anyways I love god but later on we got together again, even though she would block and unblock me for a span of 2.5 months on everything.

Wed even go to bed bible studying but it wasn’t enough for her and shed constantly wake up blocking me, saying that god told her to leave. Come to find out after I also gave her $400 dollar rent for her apartment because she was low, and claimed I was buying her off (she makes more money than me) . Later on shes blocked me again come to find out my friend said she hard launched church boy in new relationship within only 5 days.

Funny thing is right after this she got baptized, even though when i reccomended her to get baptized a while ago, shed get mad at me. She said its her decision and I cant influence her within God’s will. I was literally just reccomending it because her faith.. now im stuck on a girl and also hurt with god, I cant even like a jesus reel on instagram no more. Hope all is well with everyone hurting

No hate to god by the way. I truly love him it just hurts to by someone trusting in something they cant see over my own life.