New to this

I have not had a close relationship with god in my life. I have found Jesus a few years ago but just recently really starting exploring what that means. I have a strong urge to go to church and just started reading the Bible a few weeks ago. I find myself kind of terrified. I have sinned so much, and in some circumstances I am still sinning. Don’t some sins take a little while to stop doing? There are things that were habits for me that I now realize are sins. I am scared that I won’t be forgiven for them. I am trying now to change these things. I have admitted my sins to god and asked him for help to stop them. I don’t know if that is good enough I feel like a terrible person to be honest. I am also wondering if tattoos are a sin? I have been having urges to remove all of my tattoos because I feel god wouldn’t want someone to ink their body, and that’s another thing is this even my body or his? I also feel guilty about dying my hair because it’s not what he intended my hair to look like. I don’t know if I am taking this too far or if it him telling me to do these things. Is it normal to be afraid of god and what he thinks of me?