I need a christian perspective on dating

First of all, I’m a catholic (27M) and I’ve been a believer most of my life, despite some faith crisis. But, for the most part, I’m very cynical about heterosexual love due to some bad experiences with women (including my parents divorcing because of my mom’s choice).

I self-identify as a bisexual, and I’ve only dated men in my life. I mistrust women, I feel like they are gonna leave me for another man because I’m not enough (as my mom did to my dad). However, I’ve been working on this and I think it’s time to grow up. I wish I could marry a woman and bring children to this world. I really want that, that’s why I’m gonna leave the gay dating world apart.

So, my question is, would a christian woman forgive my sins (homosexuality, rage, idolatry) and rely on me? Do you think I’m a lost case?

Sorry if this post sounds off topic, but I need christian people answering my question.