I want to commit a sin

I (27F) want to watch p*** so bad. Ive been addicted to it since I was 8. Got exposed to it by accident through an ad in the internet. My parents didnt watch over our computer searches or anything. I havent steadily been watching it since I was 8, but I think about it often and once every few years I’ll go through a binge and I cant stop watching it for weeks. I’ve always known it was wrong but i felt like i couldnt stop. I got saved 5 months ago and I’m having thaf desire to watch again. Theres been quite a few times recently I’ll click on something that ‘might’ be pornographic in hopes of seeing something on ‘accident’ I havent actually watched porn or mastubated/ done anything out right immoral since being saved. But these thoughts are killing me. They just pop into my head at the most random times. Im going to the gym and working out and reading and praying and going to church and what not. But I feel like I dont have an outlet to this energy. All I can do is carry my cross and I feel like I’m going insane. I just wanted to share. I dont know who to talk about this stuff with. I dont have any close christian friends. I also havent been baptized yet, I want to do that.