(22M) I just want to die tonight.

I have absolutely no talent, have been cripplingly depressed for almost a decade straight now, literally do NOTHING but sit in my room and watch YouTube all day (and I mean NOTHING, I don’t EVER go outside), I have ZERO experience of any kind when it comes to dating women (I’ve never hugged one, kissed one, held hands with one, lost my virginity, NOTHING), am so skinny and pale that I look like I could get beaten up by a short, petite woman despite the fact that I’m 5’11, have diagnosed ADHD, have severe flat feet that are so flat I’ve been approved for reconstructive surgery by three different specialists that work with the feet, and am dumber than an impoverished high schooler in Louisiana.

I AM SO FUCKING MISERABLE, I HATE LIVING, I HATE WAKING UP EVERYDAY, AND I WANT IT ALL TO JUST FUCKING END!!!