A little hope

My mental health has not been too great in the last few days , i have been reading the bible and writing down scripture and currently trying to write out the whole bible as a distraction from things . my mind is doing to me voices unsure what they are , they are very oppressive and angry I just lost my mum to Cancer my dad passed away through his own hands 15 years ago , i finding it hard to be without my parents had to see the emergency mental health team but they just passed me on to agencies that no longer exist. i guess i am struggling but i know Jesus is with me, it is a little hope, trying to contact my psych for a month now NHS uk is really rubbish