Being an adult and child of God are both hard to do.

Hi, I have high functioning autism, about to be 20 years old, and still live with my parents, for awhile now I’ve been trying to life for god again. And be a good son. But one day my dad said he was gonna be extra hard on me and then I’m not a little kid anymore. And that scared me, I pray for strength and peace but I’m just so scared to grow up.

I just stay home alone by myself helping my mom cleaning the house, and whatever. I draw Jesus a lot so that’s cool, all I ever wanted was to make my parents happy, but I’m too scared to grow up now, I have doubts and nightmares about messing things up for myself. I talk to yeshua like he’s my friend, and I tell him that I’m scared to grow up, and that I’m not ready.

Sometimes… I think I’m not good enough for god. Or go to heaven. But I remind myself not to think of theses things. I pray that I’m not alone or that I meet new friends when I go to college.

I’m sorry if I ramble too much😅 I could get a little carried away.

But anyway, if anyone’s reading this, please support me on my journey to adulthood, it’s been really scary and challenging for me.✝️🙏🏼