Coming back from the bar, feeling lonely and calling out to God

All of my friends have a girlfriend or somebody interested in them. I just sat in a loud bar looking around dancing to obscene music and people who were more physically attractive but had no interest in me. All I could think about was my loneliness and desire to be closer to God. This stuff we think where the life is (partying, alcohol, sex) isn’t where the life is. I acknowledge my heart wants companionship and I have done a lot to pursue that, but if no one is interested in me then so be it. Because all that matters is that God is interested in my life mattering and what I’m contributing. It just makes me emotional that I have endured myself for the last few years – some ups and downs battling sin, and all I want is to be in his presence in whatever highest form that may be. I resent my sins and the desire of my flesh. I feel resentful towards my loneliness and hateful towards the circumstances of my existence sometimes. But I always remember God called me to come to him.