Finding faith🙏🏼

I’m trying to bring Jesus in my life again after a long year of porn addiction, and hurting others and being lazy most of the time. And not paying attention at church as much as I’m supposed too and not praying as often, it’s hard bring Jesus back in my life again.

I want to try finding faith again in Jesus and god and move on from sin and lust. And purify my life, my choices. And my life… I’m reading the Bible right now and so far I’m getting good.

I want to be happy but I feel like my past actions and sins are haunting me, whispering in my ears of the sinner I was, I want to go to heaven when I die and repent every single day.

(I’m christian. Not catholic, which I’m not against Catholics or anything I’m just saying to clarify.)

I’m doing good so far my anxiety and my depression is going away a little bit. And I repent everyday now. And I try being with my family as much as I can.

⚠️And having autism is hard sometimes, but i’m really mature for my age surprisingly but there are times where I just forget about God and sin, I had an entire week court. I felt like I committed blasphemy, and watched videos about the mark of the beast and judgment day, which gave me anxiety, and I cried extremely. To the point where my eyes were red.⚠️

⚠️I’m trying to trust gods plans and accept Jesus sacrifice. And accept that I am a sinner. Like everyone else… for no one‘s perfect.⚠️

⚠️Some days I just feel like crying by the overwhelming exhausting Temptation of lust and going back to my old way, or just feeling like I’m not enough. like I just wanna pull the trigger to end my guilt and regrets🥺😭⚠️

⚠️Any help will do from anyone willing to give me advice of how to turn my life around.⚠️