God is ignoring me 100% sure

If God truly sees how much Iam suffering why doesnt he at least send me a smalllllll sign? Just something to show me that, someday, things will get better? I really dont think Iam asking for much.

Ive been alone my whole life. No close friends in school. None at university either. I long for deep connection, actually a partner, someone to build a life and maybe a family with. But I feel like I shouldnt even dare to dream of that when it seems so out of reach. So I thought one friend would actually do it.

For the past 10 years Ive been battling heavy depression. And I think it mostly comes down to the loneliness thats been quietly consuming me. Now that Iam 24, Iam just realizing how deeply Iam craving friendships and I even had one opportunity (my first in like 5 years to make friends) but God did take this one opportunity away from me. Over the past few months, it has been reallyy bad. At this point Ive even prayed for God to just take away my feelings, emotions and desires away from me as I would rather feel nothing at all than get disappointed every single day. But yeah nothing changed.

Ive prayed for a small sign. Just ANYTHING to keep me from losing my faith entirely. But nothing has come. So how am I supposed to not feel ignored by God? How am I supposed to still have faith??? Wouldnt have God let me have this one opportunity in my life when I needed it right now the most??? Nothing has gotten better in all these years (10 years!!!). So how long am I supposed to keep waiting for something that maybe was never meant for me? Iam not expecting miracles. Just a tiny hint that Iam not completely invisible to Him or society. I feel like my faith is worthless to him