God wanted me saved

For so long I have been a Universe, manifestation and evil eye girly. I would read so much self help book because I wanted to become a decent human being with emotional intelligence. Then life becomes redundant. It seems like I’m constantly seeking meaning in life, it feels empty and I kept convincing myself that my purpose is my job. I thought, why am I seeking peace still when I feel like I have developed to be a decent person.

One day, A thought in my head pops out that I wanted to buy a Bible to interpret myself. (Super random!) This was the time also where I question whether God really exist or not, and this was the time where I believe that there is a higher God, but I was not acknowledging Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit and all.

And so I bought the Bible. I chose the colour pink one NKJV because I feel like it’s the one that spoke to me and it just happened that there was a person there who suggested that this book would make more sense for me to read as part of the new generation. At first, I was barely reading it because the Genesis page was talking about who began to and I thought I would not be able to remember all the name so I didn’t really know how to read the Bible until I have to google it and see where I should start.

I also started having dreams related to rapture where the sky would turn red in a bomb or radiation would drop from the sky and I remember so well someone screaming. I’m so sorry God in my subconscious. I’m aware that this is rapture, but I never truly look deeper into it myself to think what it was, but it was the back of my head until one day my friend name ISAAC called me and he was talking about his amazing experience of how he found God The same guy who was just in Mexico, living his best life sleeping around so hearing this from him, I was quite concerned, thinking maybe he wasn’t mentally stable.

He was talking about how he felt God reaching out to him, asking him to talk about he’s teaching, and he felt his love so much that he wanted to change his way. This is the same day where I started reading the book last page which was revelation, talks about all the scary things that have happened in the past. At first, I didn’t really feel anything, but as I progressed each day, I started having this peace in my heart, and it truly felt like God was reaching out to me, and I suddenly started crying almost every day as if he was just be beside me and then that was the beginning of it all.

I started writing almost every day and every day I would always get so emotional not because I’m sad or broken, but it was more like an overwhelming feeling because I can feel his presence and I keep apologizing and asking for forgiveness and I also keep thanking him for the second chance that he was giving me.

I feel more lighter each day now I judge less, and I am more aware of my actions and words, and I truly love this. I felt like my purpose was to follow him. Be becoming a Christian and share his teaching to people who need to hear it.