Help

I have been struggling with porn addiction and idk what to do, I feel super addicted to it. Like whenever I don’t do it I get withdrawals, and whenever I do it sometimes I don’t even do it because I’m horny I just do it. Idk what to do, I feel like it’s destroyed my faith in Christianity, I’ve been to a pastor already and confessed it, he gave me a Bible and said start reading the gospels, I did that and then sorta stopped. I feel so disconnected from him, very in the dark. Idk if I have faith anymore. I just don’t get why he can’t reveal himself to me it makes no sense. Why is it that the people that would benefit from it the most never get to have visions of him. It just feels like this whole situation has got me trapped, I feel like a mouse in a glue trap. Please help.