how to stop being trans

lmao i feel like i could regret of posting this bc is kinda embarrasing, but anyone know how to stop trans thoughts? i try to repress it and it “work” but they always come back and is horrible it have been like this for almost a year now and i’m so tired, i’m trying to work on my appearance hoping that it will fix it, i’m so scared that it don’t, i don’t want to be miserable all my live but i also don’t want to transtition

i’m sorry if is annoying or offensive, also sorry if i spell smth worng english is not my first lenguaje lmao