I keep falling to lust every week

Gods changed my heart so much over the 2 years I’ve know him. He’s performed miracles shown his love, and yet I still abadone him, jump out the boat and drown. This world just traps my soul, I feel so drained by the end of the week and tired my senses go. Its not an excuse someone living in the spirit has to be better and thats why im here, please pray and offer advice i feel so so so so silly 😔