I need help

Ok so I had this thought some months ago in my mind said the holy Spirit didn’t make me feel like I had to apologize it was a thought that came to my head I always have this feeling it came back again I’ve been having bad thoughts about the holy Spirit and God in many other things it’s like I know I probably did the unforgivable sin like my mind said that I didn’t care that I did it or probably did my mind said a lot of things my mind keeps calling God in the holy Spirit demons or the devil or the greedy demon I forgot his name my mind keeps saying a lot of things it’s like it’s now coming back to me in it’s like I know I’m not going to heaven in I’m scared I had someone say that they realized something I think it was about who I’m chasing in I was scared that I was chasing the devil in not God in it’s like I’m tired of feeling this way I didn’t have feelings anymore Its like I’m rejecting I guess I don’t know in it’s like Bible verses don’t reach My heart I probably have more but I don’t remember right now