I’m a depressed child

I’m 14F and I’m depressed, I pray to God but nothing changes, my life is a loop I will be just ok for 2 days and then everything goes down hill, I don’t know what to do anymore but I’m not going to end it because you obviously go to hell and I wouldn’t do so anyways, I just don’t want to be alive anymore this is affecting my behaviour in everything, nobody loves me I have nobody to talk to so don’t ask, apart from God I just want to die