Im going to hell

Im actually going to hell. I keep sinning and no longer feel conviction. I know I’m going to hell. I don’t think God can reach me in this state. I have no access to my emotions, I don’t feel love joy guilt shame despair anything.. I keep doing the wrong things (vaping binging and purging) and i don’t even feel bad about it anymore. I don’t want to go to hell but I know as it stands thats where I’m going. I have a hard heart and a seared conscience. I have an amazing support system around me, but I cannot receive the love that surrounds me. Idk just rambling, if anyone has any advice it is welcomed, I do want to get right with God, I just don’t know if there’s much else I can do at this point.