I’ve been praying for a husband. I’m tired of waiting so I’m going to take matters into my own hands

It’s really painful to watch everyone else around me find a spouse while I’m just stuck being single at 30. If God wants me to be single for life then I will feel devastated if He does. It just feels forced if God wants me to remain single while I desperately don’t. I’ll happily do anything else God asks me but die alone. Who will love me if my family passes away? I still love God and I’m not turning away from Him but it’s really hurtful if He wants me to be the only single person in the family. I just need someone to talk to.