Life is unlivable right now

Why did God give me the ability to feel empathetic for people and also not want me to worry about how billions and billions will suffer for eternity based on finite mistakes.

My faith hangs on by like a string at this point. I no longer enjoy anything I used to. I no longer appreciate the little things. Because it will all be destroyed anyway and it’s meaningless.

My interests were nerdy so the people I’d hang it with are obviously nerds and none of them are believers and they won’t convert so basically my whole friend group is going to hell. And I had to give up said interests because they were sinful or something.

What rejoicing will there be in heaven when you have the knowledge that practically everyone is in hell. I know universalism is a theory but I don’t know if it’s true to be honest. It’s not really the religion of love for me

It seems some people even want others to go to hell. I watched a video yesterday of pope Francis telling a small child that his atheist father had a good heart so he’ll not be in hell. And the comments seemed angry that he didn’t tell a small child his father is suffering forever.