Looking for some advice on a longtime relationship.

Hello,

I am feeling anxious because it seems to me in my heart and conscious that I need to break up with my girlfriend. This person is my best friend and the only real relationship I have ever experienced. Our relationship has been great although as normal people we have had ups and downs but nothing major, to be honest. I have always intended to marry her from getting to know her and we have had so many great moments together. we are both working on our relationship with god trying to be more intentional. She drives me to be better always. And is making good strides to draw closer to god. Just as I am.

The push to break up with her stems from a series of dreams – with a repetitive theme or message of simply stating that I need to leave her, she is a demon, or that she is no good for me.

The first dream occurred more than 5 years ago and included me, her parents, and her in her home/living room with my mom warning me to not marry her because she is no good – this dream was random in my opinion it first happened and cause me to wake in a haste in the night (kind of a nightmare esk dream). These dreams have continued to appear in some capacity throughout the years with a few contrary ones here and there. but the original one has been etched in my memory with me trying to understand if it is from god or not.

Although I have had these dreams, I have waved them off because the reality of our relationship just doesn’t fit the dreams I have had. However, these dreams have caused a persistent nagging thought that continues to cross my mind, although I love her so much. and when I talk to her I have peace so it’s hard to believe in the dreams, to be honest.

I have been praying and praying for help from god but in the back of my head I feel that it may be him telling me to end this relationship. I don’t know why and everytime I think of doing it I just start to feel depressed/nervous. I just don’t have the courage and don’t want to break her heart because I care about her and she has not wronged me in any way – she has been a very great person.

I had a dream maybe a year to two years ago about us getting married and in the dream, I was with my brother. The dream showed that I was having a baby with my GF and she changed up in attitude after getting married and that she would essentially take advantage of me and my finances. I did not pay too much attention to it although it is something that I’ve kept in mind. Fast forward this year we have been talking about marriage – since we have been together for some time. and one of the places/venues she sent to me looks exactly like the venue in the dream i had. keep in mind i have not been to this place before and it was only shown in the dream – so i was frightened that this dream may not be just a dream but some sort of revelation.

That said, it is still hard to let go. Not for selfish reasons but just because I don’t want to hurt her. In a weird way I feel like this is some sort of test from god to prove my love for him. by giving up something i love – john 3:16. But I still have doubts that this is a god or just me being in fear. This overall experience of dreams has really delayed my life and caused stagnancy. My personal desire is to marry her but, there is guilt as if god is saying no -based on the dreams – and if i do marry her i am disobeying him. If it weren’t for these dreams then I would have married her so long ago. But i am still in a delayed spot of prayer asking for god to help with this situation or somehow allow this one to pass or be changed.

Looking for advice on this situation. especially from someone with similar experience Please.