(Not Christian) Did God just answer to my first ever prayer?

TW: Speaking of suicide

Yesterday I was in a great mental anguish because of my love life. Or specifically the lack of love life. I have lots of love to give but no one to give it to. I have never had anyone. I felt like killing myself. I have felt like that before but have never felt the urge so strongly. I felt like an animal pressed to a corner and only way I can leave is by killing myself. No light at the end of the tunnel. Completely hopeless. Yesterday could have been my last day.

When the suffering got to its peak, it was horrible. Then a thought popped up. What if I pray to God? I was in great pain and suffering greatly, but I crossed my hands and stayed silent for a moment. I started tearing up. I prayed for strenght to continue. Tears continued. God knows the suffering I go through. He knows the pain in my heart. I prayed for strenght to continue and not end my life right there. Tears streamed out and I prayed in silence. Suddenly I felt significantly better. Like someone had just taken a load off my chest. I went to the bathroom and washed my face with water, it felt like I was cleansing my worries and old me away. I felt better. I managed to clean my cats litter box during the high. I dont know. It feels like a miracle.

This morning I made another prayer. This time I tried to do it more proper.

I have always ignored questions related to God. Taken a neutral stance on things. I have never denied him but I have not been able to prove he exists either. I do not own a bible and last time I went to church was over 10 years ago.

I do not know what to make of this. I feel confused. What does this mean?

ps. Not native English speaker, sorry for bad English 😛