Please prove me wrong 🙏

Hello I am a 17 year old atheist however I would like to convert to god. The only problem I have is that I find it incredibly hard to believe that he exists. If anyone here could help disprove these takes I have Christianity then that would be highly appreciated. I would also like to apologise if this offends anyone that may read this.

If life was created to decide whether we were “good” or “bad” enough for heaven or hell then…

How could they truly decide if we were ‘good’ if not everyone had equal starting points and equal upbringings?

Their perception of bad and good could be altered by the environment of there upbringing

If there were 5 new born babies raised there entire life in a locked environment where everyday they have to murder someone in order to receive food and they did this for there whole lives then how could they be held accountable for there actions?

all they were trying to do was survive. They would off had no true idea of what is morally right and wrong.

They would be the same as animals are in the wild, animals have no ‘heaven’ or ‘hell’ no god, no higher being.

All we truly are, are animals, were evolved just like the rest of them yet we gained intelligence through evolution and now believe we are somehow better and now deserve an afterlife.

what is to say one religion is more valid than another religion, yet if they are all equally possible then how is it they can follow completely different rules?

I believe that humans were not supposed to learn about our self consciousness, about an inevitable death. That’s why people from the past created a god to keep the sanity of humans.

Relative morality.

How is it a fair or a logical system if a person commits a 25 year lifespan worth of sin then how it they then have to live out an eternity of punishment, an infinite, no matter how much one person can cause harm or destruction nothing anyone could ever do could relate to an INFINITE of suffering. In perspective thats 100,00,000,000,000 years then times that number by itself another million times and that still wouldn’t even be remotely close to how long you would have to be punished for… all for just 25 years of sin?

That argument goes both ways in why should a 25 year life of ‘good’ earn you an eternity of heaven?

god didn’t even write the bible, only inspired it. Yet how could the group of men who wrote the bible know gods true intentions?

what is to say that god didn’t “cure the man’s blindness” because doing so would give god better vision. (Ik that sounds really stupid but I’m just trying to present an example)

So why is it a mortal man with a human brain is able to be a decider of morality. God didn’t physically tell them what was ‘good’ or ‘bad’ so why should they be the one to interpret it?

But we also have to believe that the Committee of rich and senior clerics which decided which of the several hundred “Books” and scriptures available at the time should be incorporated into the “Official” Bible and which should be discarded. They weren’t a prophet of god, why should they decide which scripture should be removed or changed, and if they truly were following only the words of Christ then why would he share to them scriptures that wouldn’t be included in the bible?

How can god be real if everyone has an un-even chance to be the recipient of his message, if a child grows up in Pakistan and is only taught the Islamic religion and is never exposed to the word of god or Christianity then how is it fair that they have no chance of reaching heaven, what makes them any different from anyone else.

If you were (hypothetically) a group of religions men that wrote a story to try and spread the message of your god (the bible)… what would annoy you the most? probably other people talking poorly of the one you worship… so what’s an effective way of stopping that? Telling people you will have eternal pain and suffering in the afterlife if you do so.

Mark 3:28–30: “Truly I tell you, people will be forgiven for their sins and whatever blasphemies they utter; but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit can never have forgiveness, but is guilty of an eternal sin—for they had said, “He has an unclean spirit.””

Thank you for taking the time to read all this and once again if anyone could help disprove these query’s that would be highly appreciated!