prayer request :

hello guys. my life is very depressing for me at the moment, i am 19 yrs old and im going through it really bad spiritually and in every way tbh. ive never posted but i just would like to ask anyone to say a little prayer for me. i will try to make a long story short, my spiritual life is completely gone, willful sin broke the relationship i once had with Jesus.. i fell into addiction and my physical health is worsening as time goes on because of it. i feel hopeless because i have sinned very big (ruining the perfect health God gave me), the holy spirit has encountered me many times but i have been unrepentant. i am stuck in sm despair and idk how to get out of it. i know this reads pretty heavily but unfortunately it is my current state. any prayer or word is appreciated.