The Spirit Of God moved on me like a Lightening Bolt when I was Homeless and alone.. I was a nobody but God struck me like lightning 👇👇God is real

I know a man who had a very hard life. This man lost his father at a young age and lost a lot of loved ones at a young age.. This guy was always a loner with different mental illnesses like depression and anxiety that caused him to basically miss out on a fulfilled life.

For most of my life I remember not having many friends picked on in school abused at home and basically always the guy in the back of the room. I was always alone and loneliness shaped my life and was what I knew as normal.

After my only 2 siblings that I was close to which were my mother and brother both who passed away due to cancer within the same year i spiraled into deep depression lost my job and wound up homeless on the streets for about 3 years. During this time being homeless I experienced pain agony loneliness and disparity at level’s which I can never even begin to describe. The rejection mockery and judgement that I received while trying to work while being homeless was utterly soul crushing.

I was normally the center of peoples jokes due to my weakness my social anxiety and my stiff facial expressions of constant pain. I managed to endure even in the most coldest of days and even in the pain and suffering of being alone everyday I still managed to try and work even though I was not making much I still fought constantly to try and get a head even with crippling anxiety depression and lack of social skills which my situation manipulated .

I never gave up never turned to alcohol or drugs I constantly held on to hope and tried to encourage myself.. tried to get into housing just to constantly get rejected and constantly denied time and time again. I have lived at shelters with some of the most insane people who had brutal mental drug and criminal records. I’ve stood in lines in the rain waiting to get food served by beautiful women who were volunteers.

To make a very long and painful story short I reached a point of being homeless alone no job no food and no one to turn too my mind was failing my strength was failing my life was in constant torment and the pain and loneliness was beyond what words can decribe the hopelessness was killing me. At this point I hated god doubted god and hated anyone who talked about god because I viewed God as a sick and evil person. I would always follow popular atheist like Bart Ehrman and Aaron ra and everyday listen to their debates on disproving the existence of God because I hated the idea of god because I felt he was evil.

One night I decided to pray after having a demon outside my tent tell me to kill myself so I started to pray out to God even in tears for hours with a determination to reach God. Despite my current circumstances and agony I continued to pray every night for many hours some times 7 or 8 hours praying crying out and praising. After a short time praying I begun to fill a strong pulling in my heart a desire to seek god, the hate and anger I had towards God was no longer there but a desire for God and a determination to reach God was slowly filling my heart as I continued to cry out to god.

After all of these all night prayer sessions after I would sleep and wake up during the day I would have the worst anxiety that I have ever had in my life life to the point that my face and body get blood shot red with fear and every uncomfortable filling and anxiety caused due to stress.

As the days rolled by as I would pray and praise God his spirit would come on me while walking in public to the point where I was stumbling and could not even walk straight I was walking bent over like a mad man as the filling of something was wrapping around me so tight to the point where even holding my eyes open was difficult. The Presence was so strong that I could not walk so I would just stop stand still even in the cold for hours and lift up my hands and just praise god because when all of this was happening nothing else mattered the fact I was alone hungry and homeless did not matter my situation in that moment felt as if it was not real what I was experiencing was realer than reality itself and after this very intense experience I would go to my tent with my small thin blanket wrap up like a baby trying to stay warm and thank god for who he is even when I was hungry cold and alone I smiled thanked god and reminded him of how good he is and truly believed it and felt it.

The very next night same situation weak from lack of food and physical exhaustion due to the current circumstances I joyfully praise praised God and prayed for hours. At the end of this prayer I was crying and broken in pain and cried and asked God to please speak to me and as soon as I said this the wind started blowing I still remember the sound of the trees behind me as I was camping in the woods and a Reality that is beyond anything i can describe I knew God your here i whispered and I said I hear you… In my soul some how I knew he was there I knew he was there and I said I hear you speak to me and all of a sudden I started trembling and screaming in toungues and had a quick flash of a vision of me in a ocean it was pitch black and I was in the water and coming from the sky was a swirling light and I wish that I could explain how this night was what I seen and was experiencing was as if the spirit realm was opening and I can see and sense what is impossible to explain …

After this night those next few days I would be listening to praise and worship music all night long and I could not stop my self and electricity that felt like a bomb going off inside my stomach would hit me as I was listening to this praise and I could not help but to run down the road most of the time falling down Jolt ⚡️ that would hit me every time it would Hit me I would fall as if someone puched me in the stomach… I would be singing that praise song and it just kept hitting me nothing painful but what I was filling was almost more than I could handle and this went on for a few days and nights..

A few days after my experience the cloud of Gods presence that was over me felt like it disappeared and I was back to filling alone and every emotion that one can fill from being Homeless scared and alone was on me like white on rice. In these times when all of this was happening god revealed so much to my heart about my life and the cause of a lot of things. I fill that God revealed so much to my heart and I realized that regardless of what we fill we need to seek god regardless of what we fill even when our back is against the wall and hell is around us on all corners.

After my encounter with God and the day that it felt like God stepped back and I was back alone head on with the reality of my situation with the real fillings I was facing of exhaustion pain agony as I tried to sleep at night I would hear something walking past my tent that sounded like something I can’t explain but carried with it a evil presence’s i would physically hear it laugh and make a weird scary Pig screaming sound I can’t explain the sound but fear would come over me but I would remember God and pray 🙏 and I would not hear it any more this went on for a few nights I would have this evil spirit harass me even though he did not touch me but I heard it out side and these few days were very hard and I would say for some reason these days after this experience with God were the hardest for me because I felt so alone the filling and pain the agony of not knowing what to do or where to go the thought of not having anyone to talk to was something I would not wish on my worst enemy but even when I was alone and in sadness and pain I would pray and cry to god even when a flood of temptations would come over me like desire to masterbate or other things I would pray and cry out to god because things started getting very hard for me and I was wondering why God was not helping me but I learned that regardless of what we fill we have to pray and seek God because he is good ! We don’t seek him for what we can get but we seek him because we need him and all of a sudden God started coming back on me with electricity ⚡️ and tounges.. I prayed even when I had no strength to pray !!! And god started showing up and I knew he was there touching me… Not long after this I wound up moving long story short and am living in a different place in a house and things are coming together and my life is now pretty normal, and I’m working on building my life as we speak but I realize that we don’t pray and love God with the intention of getting things from him because all day everyday I see people turn away from god because he did not give them what they want !!

People are gold diggers and treat God like a cheap whore and turn against him give up and lose faith all because God did not give them what they themselves have the power to achieve on their own by using the brain and hands had gave them… stop complaining about your life and fight everyday to build it! If you want a better job then seek it study get out and search meet people stop sitting around being lazy expecting god to be your genie in a bottle. Stop loving God with a fake conditional love you want a wife become husband material work start talking to people stop blaming god for your failed life ! Myself along with many others walk away from god because we think that he owes us everything like spoiled brats … Imagine if you was rejected by everyone abandoned denied and crucified on a cross for people who only love you if you give them everything. Imagine that fake love a fake conditional love a cheap love it’s heart breaking 💔 that so many today Blame God because of the bad choices that they brought on their own heads… your lack of money miserable job your singleness is not gods fault !! Apply yourself it’s not gods fault your broke with no car making minimum wage you made that choice! Not god so change it !! We get sick we have diseases heart problems, blood pressure problems yet every fast food line is always filled with people’s eating junk food then blame God because they are sick. A man smokes gets cancer then blames God ..

We consume things with chemicals that cause a lot of problems then blame God when something goes wrong. Every problem in the world today is the doing of men world hunger is man’s fault Greed and man’s pride and desire for power and control is what brings wars death and suffering. God gave us a pure world but we are the ones who took another way our way we wanted to be God. People get sick and have cancer because men create and destroy the environment the pollution the processed food drug pharmaceuticals with medicines that are full or things that mess the body up !! Instead of ending world hunger we spend trillions on military equipment trillions on porn cigarettes alcohol guns and so much more of things that we do not have to have you find we humans have the power to change everything but we because of greed live the way we do Do you want change ? If you truly. Want change stop sitting around making excuses and blaming everyone else and make it happen faith without works is dead .. sorry for the bad wording I’m typing all this on a new iPhone that I am trying to get use to the sensitive keyboard

Everyone I apologize for the horrible writing there is so much I want to share but this new iPhone and it’s horrible auto spell is not letting me edit things it’s a mess !!! I am starting to not like iPhones keeps changing words and causing issues !