Tired

Hi everyone.

Am posting cause i need help on understanding my situation. 15 years of insomnia and extreme fatigue, i have been struggling. At the beginning of this year i finally got the deliveranced i needed. Ive always knew that i needed it but no matter how hard i prayed there wasn’t the right people to do 100% of the job. While i was scared and angry at first i accepted the fact that God’s timing is different. It goes without saying that 15 years of being physically, spiritually, mentally being attacked by ungodly creatures has had very sad concequences.

Why i need help.?

I thought that now that am free, i believed/ manifested/prayed that my situation would change. Well am not moving forward but at least am not going backward anymore. Am just stuck in place and surround by people who pity me. My parents have to help me pay rent every month, cause my very low paying job isn’t enough. 7 years since i bought my last pair of jean but you’ll never guess cause i refuse to show my “poverty” to the world. My health also is not great but at least am not having strong awful flu 8 times per year as before.

Am rumbling a bit but yeah am just tired to this shameful situation. Ashame that my parents who themselves need help, are sending me money to pay my rent. Ashame that am the only friend in my friend group, with no money (even if ive always been very financially responsible with tge little amount of money i have) no saving, no bf ( i refuse to day without financial means even if am a woman).

So yeeeah if anyone could help. Thx