To everyone struggling finding faith and worry about past sins

I have been struggling with God for a long time as many have been. I was baptized when i was 7 and on that day i felt the holy spirit touch my heart. It was amazing.

But i lost the spirit of God quite fast for reasons unknown. I had a very abusive childhood and i renember praying to God but things only got worse.

Since then i have searched for God everywhere. I began to look for him in Hermeticism, Gnosticism, Buddhism.. but that lead me to nowhere.

I always knew in my heart there is one Truth but didnt feel it.

I abused drugs to find God.

I thought maybe UFOs are God..but found out they are Satan and his fallen angels decieving humanity instead.

I heard so much trash about Christianity that it is created by the Devil and one should never search for Jesus…

I was spiritually so lost for years. But i never stopped searching.

I made many sins while i was lost but i was never wicked.

But then i decided to look at The Bible one more time. And funny enough i saw a weird bright light in the night sky hours before i had this tought to give Bible another chance .

Well.. my my many years of long mysery was over that night and i felt the Holy Spirit in my heart again. I was finally answered and i will never lose my faith again.

“The Lord is good and does what is right; he shows the proper path to those who go astray.” Psalm 25:8

All this suffering i went through was for a reason. To know only one thing and that is that Jesus is the Son of God and The Eternal Truth!

“He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.” —Psalm 147:3

Timothy 1:13, he writes, “although I was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor, and an insolent man; but I obtained mercy because I did it ignorantly in unbelief.” If God could forgive Paul, there is no sin too great for Him to forgive.

I hope this will spark something in your hearts.

Jesus is King