When does it get better

I am only 14 yrs old going through probably the hardest time of my life, I’m crying myself to sleep almost every night and not doing well in class, I just wanna ask, Is Jesus seeing what I’m going through?, and if he is, why isn’t he helping?, I’m the only one in my family and the only person in my friend group who’s going through something. I know god has a different plan for everyone but why does mine have to be so harsh?