Would the church still allow me to wear white and have a church wedding even if ain’t pure anymore?

Many says church weddings are off limits for people who had being intimate in the past. I prayed hard for forgiveness. Would God forgive me? Would he let me wear white and have a church wedding in the future with the person he had fated me with? I had always dreamed to have a church wedding and wear white but the dream was left hang when I encountered a boy… And lust took over me. I still regret to this day for letting off my guards that very night. I was a fool to think that the person would love me after that but what a fool I was.

Even previous nights back I had a dream that my ex bf (we didn’t get intimate) was in town and we were about to hook up even though he told me he didn’t see a future with me. I was so full of lust that I was about to give in but my two cousin brothers (when they were young version) distrubed us and I heard someone say “she’s possessed by lust” only then It hit me with the reality of my faith that I was going to give my body to a person who doesn’t even see a future with me? Gosh I felt so guilty. It was just a dream but it had a big impact on me fr. I used to read those smutt novels back then but I’ve deleted it and thrown away the thought of getting it back. Slowly I’m taking myself away from it. Even the thought of it makes me ewh of myself.