Need someone

I wish I could get back to myself and who I was before the trauma and heart ache. I can’t take anymore bad things happening. I hate how it broke me so much I don’t recognize myself. 3 years later. Dr said I won’t be that person anymore and I have to accept it. I was so strong motivated and successful. Now I’m so weak and just beg for it to be done. I swear I’m a good person and never did anything to ever hurt anyone intentionally but a person can only take so much. I’m sorry.