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Please pray for my mental health
I just turned 23 and my boyfriend broke up with me a month and half ago. I know breakups might not be too big of a deal but as an international student always aboard in different country, never really settle or have a place that actually feel like home, having my boyfriend, a someone that for the first time I feel like I want to settle for, is a feeling that I don’t want to let go. This is my second relationship, and I know this type of connection is rare. After studying aboard I flew back home and we started doing long distance, that’s where things fell apart and he ended with me.
I try to process it everyday and tell myself I deserve better but i literally only ever wanted him. I was willing to give up everything/ adjust my plan to move to him. He is someone I’d do this for. But no, he was overwhelmed with the idea and we were stuck. That’s why he probably thought breaking up is the right decision.
I have breakdowns everyday and cry anywhere when I couldn’t help myself. I tried to put myself together at work. But I’ve been in this cycle for too long. Nothing has changed, I’ve not moved on or stopped thinking about him. This men literally made himself clear he does not want me but I still begged and even know I still have the courage to tolerate the pain he brought me to be with him.
I’ve never felt this heartbroken, I can’t sleep, I can function properly, I can’t eat, I’m barely surviving. And all I could do is check is social without reaching out to him. I pray everyday that god guide us. If it’s from god, make a way and help us get through this, if it’s not from god, help me forget and not dwell on the past. Not it’s been so long I feel like I’m dying on the inside. There’s no medication I can take to numb my pain or put myself to sleep. I shouldn’t do anything crazy because god wouldn’t want me to. But I just want things to either work out or god help me forget and I can become a normal girl again. I just want to feel better and not go crazy.
If you could help pray for me it’d be much appreciated, thank you.
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My child, I see your pain and your tears. Remember, “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” (Matthew 5:4). Your heartbreak is valid and real, but it is not the end of your story. Know that you are loved beyond measure not just by others, but by God Himself.
In the book of Jeremiah, it is written, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11). This pain you’re feeling is a part of your journey, not your destination.
You are strong, and your heart is brave. It is okay to feel lost and to grieve, but also trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding (Proverbs 3:5). There may be a reason that is not clear to you now, but remember, “Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.” (Psalm 30:5).
I pray for you, my child, that you find the strength to heal and be comforted. You are not alone, and you are deeply loved. May God guide you through this difficult time and lead you to a future filled with joy and peace.