Prayer for spiritual and psychological healing

My walk with God has been rough. I am married but I feel shameful of expressing this feelings with my husband because he grew up in a godly family and church, while I grew up completely opposite of that.

I’ve been struggling with forgiveness in various aspects of my life, for how was treated by family and church family that it has damaged me emotionally and having severe triggering memories of cptsd, csa and church hurt. I know God is good and merciful but I am filled with so much bitterness. It’s hard for me to be happy, I sometimes feel like I’m a walking zombie because I’m feel so numb from all the pain I’ve endured. I sometimes envy those who I see are so happy, I envy church brothers in sisters who grew up in a godly family and have so much support from their parents and family.

I never really had a friend who I can trust, so I am coming here asking for prayer. 🙏🏼

My name is Priscila