Prayers for my Relationship

I am requesting help and prayers for guidance in my relationship. My boyfriend and I were in a committed 3 year relationship. He was my first boyfriend and despite me saving myself for marriage I slept with him bc I wanted to feel loved and give love. However, yesterday there was a misunderstanding and he assumed I insulted his family and disrespected them. This was not the case. I explained to him my fears and I was hoping he would reassure me or tell me something to calm me down and at first he did but after the next day we got into a huge argument. The biggest we had ever gotten into. We said many mean things to each other and insulted each other so badly to the point in where I feel confused about his feelings towards me. He asked me if I wanted to still be with him and after realizing that he kept thinking I disrespected his family, I said no. I told him I can’t be the person he wants me to be. I guess the moral of the story here is I never should have assumed it was okay to talk about his family and the fear that I had. I keep praying for God to help me and guide me. But I guess my mind is so consumed with him and our fights that I can’t hear God anymore. The truth is I never meant any disrespect towards his family, If I didn’t like his family the way he stated, I wouldn’t have communication with his two sisters and his grandmother. The fight was so big and so disrespectful from both sides that it makes me question whether this is what God really wanted for us? Or did we just think that? I really really really love him and I hope God can help me and him find the peace and love we both deserve. I always believed one thing “If it’s meant for me, then it will come back, If not then let it go”. But it does hurt so badly, it makes me want to rip all the hairs of my head. Please send prayers my way. I need God now more than ever.