Several years of wife physically and verbally assaulting me and looking for a way out. Now she cheated on me for a second time. I’m finally out -but broken. My son and the courts system is being weaponized to hurt me. I ran to the church for help. They turned on me— falsely calling me abusive.

I’m in serious debt, courts upcoming, jobless, without my son. Her lies has turned the entire church looking at me like I am some sort of rapist.

God has been completely silent. To me. I have asked tons of people to pray. He is still silent.

I don’t trust God. After several years of prayer pleading for help things have only gotten progressively worse. I have given up on praying besides asking for God to let me die. It is especially difficult because I cannot seriously even consider to bring myself to kill myself but I desperately want to die. I don’t want life if God has abandoned me.