Hurting, hopeless and broken

Suffered a traumatic loss of my pet this weekend and I’m in so much pain and struggling with guilt and what-ifs. Was already at my limit with suffering from burnout, exhaustion, relentless financial difficulties, health issues, with no help or concern from anyone around me. Been begging God for years and years for so many situations and needs and they just go ignored. My pet was literally all I had left in my life that was always there for me and chose me. Why did this have to happen when I’ve already been struggling with so much pain and heaviness for so long already? Why can’t I get any relief or catch a break? What are my prayers even accomplishing? I’m so broken and beat down……