I am considering suicide.

All of my resources have dried up. I am disabled and cannot work. My check was not enough to buy ANY food due to an unexpected expense that I won’t go into details about. Unfortunately it has been a few days since my last meal. I literally completely ran out of food. Please don’t judge me; I have been doing the very best I can. But there are sadly no food banks around and only a few very small churches that have not been able to help me. I don’t want to die. I just want to be able to eat like everyone else. This really hurts. I am considering suicide because I cannot handle the cramps and hunger pains for much longer at all and I do not want to literally starve to death because that sounds slow and painful, even more painful than these pains from hunger. I am so devastated. Feels like a nightmare. I am really hoping for a miracle. I post this in hopes that you will answer the question of whether someone who commits suicide will go to hell or not. Just in case. Please no harsh judgement.