Needing to get back on track

I ran back to something that I should’ve stayed away from, it’s caused me to sin in the past but I pushed past that risk regardless.

I just felt I had to distance myself to get a break. I’m in a dangerous situation because of it, I realized that at some point during all this, I started behaving in a way that suggested I was falling away from my belief completely. Not considering myself a Christian anymore, being an atheist, etc.

These things scare me, I don’t want to fall away, this wasn’t my intention at all. It’s like Satan took advantage of this situation, I took it an inch and that prick took it a mile.

I just need space to clear my head and avoid sin the best that I can, I can’t make these mistakes again. I can’t lose sight of my progress.