Please pray for me

Feeling depressed and unappreciated at work. I just need to get into a work sector or self employment where the pay is good and you actually get rewarded for trying. Something that can scale.

I feel like crap romantically and physically and God knows why. Financially I feel like crap due to not having a car, whilst seeing wicked people that probably steal and do illegal stuff running around with lambos, wealth and what not.. there’s these two police officers and one of them I was told is having a marijuana plantation, illegal immigrant transportation, prostitution probably. These are the corrupt lawmen taking bribes along with many others probably from what I see. Prospering with wickedness.

Wicked children given everything freely by their parents abusing wealth. One indulges in drunkenness and whoredom, another in drugs. I see them driving last model cars, not working a day in their lives basically.

But when someone tells me. Oh but they will go to hell if they don’t repent and turn to Christ and the gospel. And if they repent? They get to keep their wealth and prosper even with wickedness coating their whole life. What is the benefit of my righteousness and when do i see it. God said that good measure pressed down and shaken together shall people give unto you. With the same measure you decide what to give it shall be given unto you.

The wicked showing off giving to the poor have their reward. But I constantly see wicked people having a business of showing off giving to the poor and having millions of views and getting wealth off of that.

How am I expected to enjoy my life in any way shape or form, when I see injustice and wickedness being rewarded? When I’ve done evil and afflicted someone I lost my car, job in a single month and what savings I had went away. When I see a man cheating on his wife with many many promiscuous women. Guess what. From 25k a month or whatever it was he went to 50 probably.

Please pray for me to get blessed with wisdom, strength, finances, to be smarter as well and to better my health and physique because this job is taking it’s toll on my health. You barely sleep. They were talking about a raise. Everything will be alright. It’s been 3 months basically. People are selfish evil creatures I dislike the day I was created. It would’ve been better to not be alive probably.

Yea, better is he than both they, which hath not yet been, who hath not seen the evil work that is done under the sun Ecclesiastes 4:3