Thank you.

A little over a year ago, I made a post detailing a traumatic experience with a rather…interesting individual who, at the time, seemed to espouse what I assumed to be Christianity. I was angry, spiteful, wanted answers and blamed Christ in an effort to make things make sense.

The truth is, I had, to that point, always been vehemently against any sort of religion or faith. I was extremely hateful toward anything I deemed to have “spited” me or anything I didn’t understand. I was very much a fallen soul, trying desperately to make sense of a fallen world.

I came to you guys for answers, as I don’t have many in my life who could either help guide me, nor that wanted to hear it. Imagine my shock when the very people I had spent my life damning put out their hand and wanted to help me. You answered my questions. You gave me support. You talked to me.

And thus, my worldview, though shattered, had begun to open. And with that, I opened a Bible for the first time in years.

I read it. I studied it. I realized that my questions could not be answered fully by any one person nor group of people. They could only be found through an open heart toward Christ and Christ alone. I began to pray, though unsure if I would be heard. I began to, though obviously futile, attempt to mimic what Christ had done and taught.

I gave faith a shot.

I gave more. I talked amongst others I disagreed with. Not to debate, but to hear and to learn. I helped others, even if I felt they didn’t “deserve” it (shameful line of thinking, i know). Soon, I seemed to naturally speak candidly of Christ and what I had learned with anyone I knew. You would not believe how shocked the people I know are that I had undergone such a transformation. When they asked why, I could finally give an answer.

I felt that I had been saved.

The world is scary right now. It’s no secret what happened recently in the U.S., and the reaction has gone entirely off the rails. I suppose this post is just some sort of reminder that, no matter who wants what from you; to either spill your blood or recruit you to spill another’s, Christ has forever and shall always be the Way and the Life. Even if you struggle, no matter how or when you may fall, it is not the end. To give in to this fallen world, to engage in the discourse and give in to hate, must be resisted at all costs. Our Lord preached forgiveness and grace, now is not the time to turn away. So long as the atoms that make up this universe still exist; so long as there is still air in our lungs and our hearts keep beating, Christ will always be King, and His perfect law and His truth shall always remain.

Take it from me, a God-hating atheist turned to, well, whatever you wanna call me now. It’s worth it and it’s working, I promise. 🙂