Feeling of impending doom

Feeling of impending doom

Around the middle of September I took communion unworthily, and since then have felt a feeling of impending doom. I didn’t think I should’ve taken the communion that day because I don’t think I’m right with God and have been refusing to repent.

The next morning after taking communion unworthily, I dreamt that there was a dark being representing death standing several feet away from me, and it started walking closer towards me. I woke up before it got to me, but the dream concerned me.

Since then I’ve been having a feeling of impending doom, but it seems like over time it’s gotten worse. Sometimes it feels like a gut feeling of something happening and seems like a fact of something happening, and I want to just ignore it but it comes back to my mind.

There’s been things going on with my health too, like I’ve had chest pain/pain right below my chest that radiates to my back, and I’ve had a feeling of fullness and pressure right below my chest. I have a doctor’s appointment in January though, but that’s a while away.

I’m concerned about the feeling of doom, and if it’s from God and like a fact of something happening. I don’t feel ready to die, and like I don’t think I’m right with God. I need to turn to Him, but I keep refusing to. I need to repent though

Edit: I posted this several days ago but I wanted to add something else. Since summer I haven’t been sleeping well, and feel like my dreams are just me thinking and being somewhat aware instead of feeling like I’m actually dreaming. Sometimes I feel like I don’t want to go into a deep sleep and am afraid of something happening if I deep sleep, but I don’t know if that is just stress because I’m sleeping at some point during the night. For the most part I’m sleeping through the night, and not waking up a lot, but it’s been normal lately for me to wake up at least once during the night. It seems like I’m sleeping during the first part of the night, but when it gets closer to morning or I get closer to waking up, I start dreaming but my dreams are vivid and like it’s just my thoughts. Sometimes I’ll wake up feeling tired and wanting to go back to sleep in a deep sleep, but like I don’t know if going into that sleep would be death. I’m not sure if this is just stress because I’m sleeping at night and waking up, but I’m concerned if it’s related to my health. For around a year at least I’ve had bad sleeping habits, like being on my phone right until I fall asleep, and checking my phone right when I wake up and kind of forcing myself to go on it even when I wanted to sleep. I might be getting too much sleep too. Last year I didn’t have this problem though with sleeping, and if anything I felt like it was too easy for me to sleep. If I woke up around 9 in the morning I felt like I could go back to sleep, even though I got 9 hours.