i lost my virginity and relationship with God over one boy. i feel so lost.

18F. I’m dating this dude and we had sex and starting dating within 3 days of knowing each other. I have completely abandoned my relationship with God and now that I’m finally coming to my senses about how I need to get this boy out of my life and go back down a Godly path, I feel disgusted. I would say for literal years that I wouldn’t date someone I barely knew and that I would wait for marriage…well look at me now. I have lost all of my firsts to a dude who doesn’t even respect me nor God. I don’t even know how to break up with him. Sometimes, I ask God to do it for me…but I know he wants me to do it myself. I don’t even know who or what I’ve become anymore.