I’m at a loss i need help. (long one)

For the past 2 years i’ve been struggling to defeat lust and i get a little ahead and then it all comes crashing down. It’s constantly stopping me from being productive and getting closer to the Lord, I have dreams and aspirations that i want to accomplish and i want to stay on track with God but my addiction is killing me and it’s gotten to the point where i feel like crying and cursing at myself. I don’t even like to look at myself in the mirror… honestly i just don’t know what to do after trying every method. I deleted every app that would even TRIGGER my the lustful desires and i even put a block on my phone to stop myself from seeing every 🌽ography site. Yet somehow and someway i find myself circling back to this ONE sin that i struggle with the most. I can stop lying, cussing, using the lords name in vain, gossip… basically anything else is like a cakewalk after a few days of attempts. Yet as soon as i’m triggered to satisfy my flesh and not the will of God it’s like i turn into a whole different person. I know God doesn’t hate me and i know he loves me regardless… but to see my self fall to something like this over and over again is sickening to me. The things i watch are supposed to be shared with 2 people who love each other and it’s supposed to be a moment of vulnerability for two people who have become one yet i pervert it every single day. I need help. What do i do?