Need prayers & encouragement

Does it ever get better?

So long story short, I got married for the first time at 39 after patiently waiting and praying. We started doing IVF which did not go well-2 miscarriages, zero usable embryos after 5 egg retrievals. He ended up leaving me during the middle of the last egg retrieval cycle. We made it 10 months.

The IVF and divorce left me with some debt.

Shortly after my divorce, I started dating a co-worker who I had known for years. We got engaged quickly, things were going well (we were both Christians and equally matched on many levels), and then two weeks before our wedding, he broke up with me because of my debt from IVF. I ended up leaving my job shortly afterwards.

I’m now 42, single, no money saved, no biological kids, starting over at a new job. (I’m an attorney but when I got out of law school, the economy was crappy so my 20’s and early 30’s were spent working long hours for low pay.)

When is life going to go well for me? I feel like my entire life has been a struggle.

It’s hard processing not having children when you wanted them.

I’ve been a Christian my whole life but these last few years have really tested me. I don’t see a reason to keep going. I’m so alone.

Please pray for me. I am trying to trust in God but it has not been easy.