Why didn’t God save my wife part 2

So here’s a recap of my original post, after that I want to clarify a few things.

RECAP: Basically she got the flu which turned into bacterial pneumonia. You went to the walk-in clinic they said was nothing wrong with her. They give her a steroid shot as a diabetic (You can’t give a diabetic a steroid shot without keeping them to monitor.) steroid shot caused her blood sugar to hit 9x the normal rate. Which caused her flu to be 5x worse than it should have been. Causing her to go into diabetic ketoacidosis and then septic. She was 25 we were together almost 7 years. The coroner and ICU both said the ER and or the clinic could have easily saved her. Have they even used a stethoscope on her she would have survived. But by the time I see ICU got her it was too late.

The thing is she was as good as it gets as far as humans go, always selfless, soft spoken, not a mean bone in her body. This woman had a sold out funeral. Thetr isn’t a single person that didn’t like her. Because literally everyone knows she was just the most kind and gentle person. I know someone you will say “well no one is truly good because everyone sins.’ but that’s not enough for me. She was legitimately one of the best human beings. Foind out after she died she only stayed at her job because she was paying other people’s bills and rent for them. When she could have been a stay at home mom the last two years of her life.

I just don’t understand. END OF RECAP

yes I am aware of all the verses even the one that says sometimes God allows the righteous to die to save them from an even worse death. However that’s not good even for me, if he’s all powerful then why not save them from both? I know I won’t get any answer to this as know one knows.

I’m angry, you have to under this is the woman I met at a friend’s wedding reception. The woman I fell head over heels in love upon first glance. I told her then in there I was in love with her and needed to spend the rest of my life with her. Anyone who knew us will tell you we had the kind of love you read about in romance novels. All her friends were jealous because I basically Worshipped her for lack of a better term. We got together when she was 18 and she died 9 died after turning 25. All we wanted to do was break generational curses and grow old together.

People have asked, yes she was a believer, we didn’t go to church or anything but she did believe. A mustard seed faith is all it takes and she had that and more.it also stinks because I’m not sure I believe in a true physical heaven versus just fading to black when we die. (I’m not here to argue) I want to believe we go to heaven instead of just dying. If that is the case I believe more people are in heaven than we think. It’s not about us being good or bad. It’s more about God’s Grace and forgiveness. (Not that their arent good and bad things we should or shouldn’t do.) I think if we get the chance to go to a physical heaven it has more to with us accepting God and wanting him. As a parent I think in most cases he obviously wants us.

I’m just broken guys, all she was work entire life. She worked 70 hours a week for two years straight so I can finish grad school. She took a secretary job at the hospital after that which was easier on her.
When I finally landed a job that paid enough for her to stop working she kept working anyways. Despite being tired of working. Turns out she was paying bills and rent single mothers and a few friends. When she died she was working 60 hour weeks. I never got to take her on vacation or anything. We had one planned for April this year but she died in March.

This woman was truly my soulmate I don’t think you can understand the feeling I got just being and her presence unless you love someone the way I loved her. My therapist said she believes 95% of people will never love their spouse or partner at the level I I loved her.